All is quiet now......Sara and Sam are asleep....I wish I could join them in deep rem, but I find myself wide awake wanting this night to pass.

Harry told me of the good news Ed. I rejoice with you and know you're in my prayers.

My eyes are tired, but my brian feels like it's in overdrive. I guess it's on of those nights...

Looking out my window, I see the warm yellowish glow of the sun as it sets behind the Cascades...

There is a sense of comfort and peace in the warm after glow of the sun.

This is my time to be still and to take in the moment to know that God is Abba.

Much has been on my heart and mind as of late and there seems to be no end.....although I pray not for a lighter load, but a stonger back, I feel as if my back is about to give way.....

Father, I know that even if my back breaks in two, you are there to hold me. I thank you Father not for the things You do for me, but for being an ever present presence in my life.

I ask that you steady my hands and strengthen my feeble knees..To God be the glory..

Community.......

This word has been haunting my thought as of late....

Come into Unity.....This is how I see it and the best expression of this is found in the body of Christ; the church.

The church is the called out community of God that embodies the truths and reality of Jesus Christ.

sadly, church has become a gated community filled with disconnected individuals who have forgotten what it means to be a part of the whole...

my prayer - Father, you exist in community as you are one with the Son and the Holy Spirit. Remind and show us once again that our journey with you is not traveled alone but in community. Help us to embody your truth. Amen.

Do I want the world to see and feel what is occupying my heart and mind or do I simply lay them all at the foot of the cross.

I'll choose the latter, for my Lord is far better then the emptiness and silence of this world.

Dear Jesus, my God and King,

I humbly come to the foot of the cross and I'll let go of myself and hold on to you. I've bowed my knee to molech too long, I will follow you and you alone.

My heart grows faint as with tangible eyes I see what might lie ahead.....Help me to see with eternal eyes the hope and love I have in You.

I am in need of Your guidance and in need of clarity of thought.....Father, I pray that my every step will honor you.

I am thankful that you ground me through the warmth of Sam's smile. She is truly a gift from You.

Strengthen our hearts as Sara and I seek to follow You.

thank You, Abba.....

Two blisters on two feet......Walking is a pain.....

One blister on the back side of my brain......Thinking is a pain......

Bandages on my feet and brain......Hope those blisters heal soon.

On a side note.....Sam's smile always melts my heart. God has given Sara and I such a beautiful daughter. My capacity to love increased exponentially when Sam was born.

Sara and Sam.....my life is filled with love for you.......